Today was supposed to be my deadline. I thought surely by now I would have a job of some sort; if not I planned to seek out my options regarding money I owe. Turns out I can’t postpone payment, and I can’t even seem to get on at a furniture factory. Seriously?! I’m NOT that ill adjusted. I don’t light up a room, but I’m charismatic enough when I want to be.
I wont bore you with lots of details. I have no clue what to do next. While I do know better, it’s extremely hard right now not to feel as if God has left me hanging. I fight that because I know that when the plan comes together it would seem foolish in hindsight. I’ve been crying out for months just wanting some guidance, which seems to have fallen on closed ears. Hence, another thought I’ve been fighting off. Again, I know better.
I wanted to write this simply because I also know that like me, you sometimes know better, but it doesn’t make you feel better. I feel let down right now; I feel like I’ve tried so hard to do right by God to no avail; I feel frustrated and ready to give up. BUT, I refuse to let my feelings set my course. I can’t imagine what it is right now, but there’s a purpose in this pain. This too shall pass.
Join me in being honest about your feelings, but please don’t allow your feelings to get in the way.