I can barely recognize that guy in the pictures. (Forgive me, a picture of pictures is terrible I know, but that’s the best I could come up with; I’m not very techy when it comes to photography.)
He looks so happy to finally finish his undergrad work . . . a great deal of work I might add. No weekends, no t.v. during the week, little time with friends, youth minister during all of this, he worked so hard to get to these pictures; and by the time he got here he already knew he most likely wouldn’t use his degree in a career. It seems like a lifetime ago.
I’ve been doing better lately, mostly anyway; but this time of year always stings a little. Everyone is excited to move into their next chapter whether it be college or seeking a meaningful career. For me it’s just a reminder of another year gone by with little to no progress. It’s four years now since I finished my undergrad work, and I can’t think of much to show for it. I am taking mixed martial art classes (which I really enjoy btw), playing guitar in the Church, and going to work in a tire shop; sure there has been some spiritual growth, but by and large I still fill unfulfilled. Unfulfilled inside and unfulfilled potential; it’s as if the past four years have been for nothing.
I think God may have given me some insight into that . . . A few days ago I received a mass email; it was totally unrelated and addressed whether or not to let kids have a smart phone, but something the author said struck a chord. As his kids age he relaxes a little at a time on the phones, but he still doesn’t let them use social media except rare occasions, have more than a couple of games, or have many other “fun” things on their phones in general. Why?
It’s a waste of time.
Time is extremely precious in this life; we only get a short window to do what we can with what we have. There’s not enough to waste it.
If I’ve accomplished nothing the past four years it’s because of a simple reason.
I HAVE WASTED THEM.
Rest isn’t a waste; I don’t do much of anything on Sunday, and I firmly believe that’s ok. God means for us to rest; he commanded the Israelites to do so. But, He only commanded them to do so one day each week. I remember how much effort I had to put in for that degree, and it bears no resemblance to my life now.
Friend, I know I have dropped the ball; I have no idea what I’m supposed to accomplish in this life. I do know it won’t be through wasting hours each day on facebook, Youtube, mindlessly watching t.v., or playing games.
Perhaps you are like me in that you tend to waste precious time; I pray we both wake up and start making much better use of it. There’s no time to waste.